At the risk of sounding like a broken record to many of you who either read this blog, get our newsletter updates, or speak to us in person frequently, we would really appreciate your prayers over the next couple of months. We are really getting down to the final days and weeks before a final decision could be made about the twins and everything about foster care is starting to really wear us down emotionally and spiritually.
I struggle the most because my day to day routine involves 3 visits a week with birthmom, multiple phone calls every month from professionals involved in the case, paperwork that has to be filled out for everything the girls do (or so it seems!), worry and fear about losing my family in 2 months, constant crying out to God for help as I struggle to keep my head above water some days.
Shaun struggles because he hates seeing what it all does to me and he hates that he can't fix it. It's a battle that is tough on our marriage.
I don't mean to complain, but I just wanted to be honest about where we are at right now. We feel helpless sometimes but then we remember that prayer is not a helpless thing to do. It is the MOST powerful thing we can do.
I want you and Shaun to know that Bruce & I are praying for you! We know how hard foster care can be and the toll it can take on the family. The Lord has called you to this. He will provide you with what you need. We pray that soon Addie and Katie can be Gutierrez'but until then we pray for strength. And most importantly (but the hardest thing ever) we pray for the Lord's will to be done. Whether or not it is the ending we want. Waiting is the hardest part. Trust the Lord. Psalm 27:14.
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