Waiting on God's Timing

Last night we completed the 6th of 8 classes we are required to take before we can be licensed as foster parents. All in all, the classes have been very informative and enjoyable. We've met some new people and have been exposed to a whole new world of information and ideas that were foreign to us 3 months ago.

Thursday we begin the home study process. Shaun and I will each have individual interviews and then soon after that we will have an interview together. Then, they'll come into our home to make sure everything is up to foster care standards. We don't really know what to expect over the next couple of weeks, but we have been told that the questions can seem very invasive. We know that it's all for a purpose because they are trying to gain understanding into who we are and what children would be the best fit for us.

Last night we were told that just yesterday they had a 2 week old baby girl that they couldn't find a placement for! That is how difficult it has been lately to place kids. Good foster parents are needed. I found myself wishing we were licensed right now so we could have taken that baby girl. My heart yearns to care of a little baby and I had to remind myself to be patient and wait on God's timing. We won't be able to take a placement until July, and that seems like a long time from now. I often think to myself, "What if we miss out on the child that is perfect for us." However, I know that God has laid out our circumstances as they are, and when the time is right, He will bring the children to us that are meant to be in our home.

Part of me is very afraid of what lies ahead. Foster care has the potential of breaking my heart over and over again and I wonder if I'll be able to stand it. I don't know if I'll be able to welcome a child into our home, fall in love and form a strong attachment, only to watch the child go back to his or her biological family in the end. As much as it is sometimes tempting to say, "I can't do this", God has led us to foster care and I need to place my trust in His plan for our lives. He'll equip us for whatever lies ahead and all we can do is take one day at a time.