love of my life

love of my life

Friday, September 21, 2012

How can I feel so happy yet so sad at the same time?

Yesterday the judge terminated the parental rights for both of the birthparents. It was another very long day in court listening to testimony that continued to point out the fact that bio mom is not capable of showing empathy, nurturing, and love to her children. Much of her deficiency is due to her tragic past filled with trauma that she has not dealt with. It is a very sad fact that her upbringing rendered her an unfit parent to all 5 of her biological children. She continues to make bad choices in relationships and is in a very dark place.

When the judge spoke the verdict yesterday afternoon, my heart was pounding. I was squeezing Shaun's hand and hoping and praying that the Lord would rescue our sweet girls from the grip of the same childhood that their biological mom had had. I was so utterly relieved, joyful, and thrilled that we would not ever have to say goodbye to K and A only to have them returned to a very unfit parent. At the same time, I was filled with empathy and compassion for this 24 year old woman who had just had her 4th and 5th children permanently removed from her care. I was struck by how the world is really messed up- how our sin has ruined the family structure in so many ways. I am so grateful for a God who can redeem and bring good out of even the most ugly circumstances, but the extent of human suffering overwhelms me sometimes. Shaun and I will continue to pray for the twins' biological parents. They are both in very dark places. Only when they figure out that Jesus Christ is their hope in this world will anything ever really be able to change.

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