Our 4 baby embryos will be thawed in about 2 days and we will finally get to "meet" them. As it gets closer it is really starting to hit me that those 4 tiny lives have been entrusted to us and all I can really do at this point is pray that at least 1 or 2 will survive the thaw. Each embryo has something like a 40% chance of survival. It's hard to say exactly because I have read different stats on different websites. We feel so at peace about the Lord leading us to this point so I want to believe wholeheartedly that we will get through this experience and in 2 weeks have a positive pregnancy test. I told Shaun yesterday that I find myself mentally preparing for disappointing news, but I don't want to think negatively at all. I want to believe with all of myself that God has brought us to this place and has answered some huge prayers to get us here so it will happen. I know it's important to remain positive but I also am not God so I know I don't know anything for sure.
It's partly because I've faced so much disappointment in the fertility/infertility world that I honestly can't really even imagine getting a positive pregnancy test at this point. It's strange to know that I actually will be pregnant on Thursday. So, I've decided to be completely positive, to use positive words and believe that the Lord's purpose is for at least one baby to be born from these 4 embryos. I can deal with the heartache at the time it comes if I need to but why try preparing for something that may not even happen, right?
We found out last week that we will be thawing all four embryos, and all four were frozen on day three originally. We will be implanting the two healthiest looking embryos right away after the thaw rather than waiting to see if any survive to day 5 in the lab. Embryos are implanted either on day 3 or day 5. The nurse at the clinic asked us what we wanted to do and it was hard to know what is best. It's strange making these decisions because it is so unnatural, yet we have to make them. Ultimately though, I'm not sure it matters what day we implant them on because I truly do believe that whichever embryos are meant to live will live. I am thankful to serve a sovereign God who's hand controls even the tiniest 8 cell embryos!
I will keep you all up to date once we know more on Thursday after the transfer is complete!
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