Overwhelmed by God's Faithfulness

I had a day last week that was rough. Things were getting stressful with the remodel we are doing right now which is taking up my time and making me feel like a distracted mom, Shaun is job hunting and working a lot, and then I find out that the drugs I will need to be on for the rest of the time up until a positive pregnancy test and 4 weeks later will be very expensive. I was having a difficult time trying to contact my insurance company to find out what they would and would not cover. I don't know if it's just me but I feel like my brain gets all fuzzy as soon as insurance people start talking to me with their confusing terminology. It just stresses me out!

Anyway, Shaun and I had a date planned for that evening (thanks to an Old Chicago gift card that needed to be used) and I was really looking forward to getting everything off my chest. My plan kind of back fired though because my stress only added to his stress and we began really questioning if embryo adoption was really the direction the Lord is leading or if it is something we are doing out of our own desires. Things in our lives are pretty crazy right now as Shaun transitions from full time employment to part time and we launch into seriously building our business. We are spending a lot on this remodel, and there will be some hefty adoption fees/medical bills to pay in the next couple of months. Finances are pretty tight and we are cutting down in every area possible. We have even decided to sell Shaun's beloved Jeep for the sake of what is best for our family right now!

I say all this not to complain, but to set up the rest of the story so you can get an idea of how I was feeling that day.....

We get to the restaurant and by this time we are both seriously questioning our own sanity in trying to do this embryo adoption right now, but we also recognized that God is able to do more than we can imagine and He would see us through any financial struggles if He chose to put us through that. So, we sat in our van and prayed. We prayed specifically for a clear sign of what to do next, a sign to show us that we should continue down the road of embryo adoption. I have truly from the beginning felt like it is the direction the Lord was leading but it's easy to start to question when things get tough.

Dinner ended up being enjoyable and we were able to put aside our worries for a bit to just enjoy each other and the yummy food. We decided to take a hard look at our finances together when we got home (in our family I manage the details of our finances so Shaun doesn't always have as clear a picture of everything like I do). After going over things, I realized that it would be about $5000 to complete this embryo adoption and our savings was quickly dwindling down. I wasn't sure what we were going to do.

Shortly after talking all of this over, we find out from a friend that she and her husband had decided about a month ago to give us $5000 but they just hadn't gotten around to actually giving us the check yet. She said they both felt led individually to give us this money because it wasn't their money anyway, it is God's money and so they are giving us this incredible gift out of the abundance that the Lord has provided them. I starting sobbing, completely overwhelmed by the Lord's faithfulness and ability to meet our greatest needs and even our greatest desires. I told Shaun and he simply said, “Well, I think we got our answer. We continue on with embryo adoption with the Lord's blessing.”